Like many of us, my terrible decision making and selfish addictive behavior affected others. In my case and more than likely several others it wreaked havoc on my mother. So many phone calls where she’d hear news of some catastrophe, jailers calling her to come get me when I was young, girlfriends saying that IContinue reading “Toll Free”
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Alcohol is the worst gateway drug.
Truth. We all know it. It will take millions more time to do their research to come to the conclusion that the bottle will destroy their lives. I feel fucking blessed to have finally found my truth, I sincerely hope that you do too. Keep fucking fighting. #aa #sober #soberlife #soberasfuck #recovery
60 days.
As with every endeavor that I start, I slacked off on this project lately. I doubt anyone reads these, but still I wanted to continue on with something of importance. Today I have 60 days sober. I was very irritable the last couple of days, kind of depressed, but now that I have a numberContinue reading “60 days.”
Beware the dogs…
When I was in my 20s I had a dream. My father was issuing me a fair warning to ‘beware the dogs’; advice given to me subconsciously from him, a bonafide extremely high functioning alcoholic. At that time I hadn’t really felt the grip and terror of alcoholism. It was still a parlor trick thatContinue reading “Beware the dogs…”
Les Miserables.
It’s funny, I never really thought about how shitty my circumstances were. I thought it completely normal to crawl through the day, reeking of booze and hoping to keep down whatever little pull that I took in the morning but inevitably puking it all up. Never getting too close to people because if they couldContinue reading “Les Miserables.”
The history of ranch dressing.
You know what is extremely fucking difficult? Relationships. Sprinkle in the added bonus of two people having chemical dependency issues, a dash of mental health problems and bake at Poor-50 for 5 years. I got sober a little over a month ago, and while my wife supports me she is not willing to make theContinue reading “The history of ranch dressing.”
Alcohol fuels anxiety.
I had always struggled with massive bouts of anxiety. Conversely I had always consumed massive amounts of alcohol. And drugs, but I never really thought that they were a contributing factor. The mornings following a bender were always the worst. I would usually still be drunk when I would first wake up, but as theContinue reading “Alcohol fuels anxiety.”
what was I really thinking?
I have been reading some of the other blogs around here, and first let me say that I am very happy that people have decided on a better life. It thrills me to know that people had had enough, and they wanted to throw in the towel. But as I am reading people who speakContinue reading “what was I really thinking?”
Trading Addictions?
I have thought about this a lot in the past. The people who are completely invested, I mean soaking wet with desire and involvement in the program, more than likely used to be pretty hardcore drunks. Throughout my time in the rooms I have met thousands of people, and I often wonder about the onesContinue reading “Trading Addictions?”
“Your subscription did not succeed, please try again with a valid email address.”
Is anyone else having trouble with this? I have started this RPG of following all the NPCs but I have gotten this error message on several blogs. I go to hit the follow button in the bottom right corner and some of the time it works as prescribed, however sometimes it asks me for aContinue reading ““Your subscription did not succeed, please try again with a valid email address.””
With the Wind at My Back 